at the moment all parts of my life suck

social life- i feel like my friends don't even like me. like one of my friends she gets in these moods where she gets annoyed at every thing i say and her responses are always disagreeing with me like shes picking at everything i say and finding something wrong with it. she makes this face like wtf are you talking about and then she always. uhhh idk and i dont even hang out that much. im like everyones third rate friend. the friend you feel like you have you have to hang out with once in a while because you have been friends for so long. i dont even know how to make new friends

school work- uuhhhhhhhh wow i have such a hard time doing school work, i kill my self doing it. i dont even know what i want my major to be wtf am i ganna do with my life.

job- i just had the worst day at work on sunday, i was about to burst into tears when my boss was telling me how i was doing everything wrong. when i got out of work i cried for like 5 minutes.

home life- everyone is always yelling at each other. my dad gets made at me if i yell back at him, then he decides to give me the silent treatment

love life-....................................................none what so ever

this entry in no way conveys how much i feel like shit

when my windows wide open i feel naked

I see the way people are now.

how they all gossip about each other and smile in your face.


I used to want more friends but now I don't think I care because I don't want friends like those

I kind of just want to move out of my neighborhood so I don't have to look at all these slimy motherfuckers faces when I'm walking down the street.

please let everything go well at work tomorrow.

I always try so hard not to hurt people i end up hurting my self.

I try not to be to clingy to people because i don't want them to be scared of me but the thing is

I need people, i need to feel loved, i need for people to love me.

I need people to talk to me,

I don;t want to spend day after day at home on my computer.

I want to go out on crazy adventures.

I don't want to hide anything from anyone I want to be myself.

i need a life

i should be doing my statistics project thats due monday but im not, im very confused about what to do and i have to write 5 pages. so my first semester of college is over, i just have 1 more final and have to hand in this project. i really fucked up my first semester, i got a B- in english D in chem, dont know the rest of my grades.

im definitely ganna try to do better next semester. I know i can get all A's if I try hard.

hey, whats up?

i have to get more serious about school, i barley passed the 2 exams i've had so far. i have some days off so ill try to catch up with all the stuff i don't understand and homework. i did nothing today which i really should have i spent the whole day in front of the computer. so here's my plan

tomorrow- return jacket i don't want to centery 21
finish chemistry homework
finish statistics HW
read for English
Monday- Maybe go shopping for some clothes
read psychology book
review statistics
Tuesday- same as Monday
Wednesday - Review for chemistry

for mothers day i got my mom an awesome musical card that plays part of

so I was just listening to Janet Jacksons song feedback and one of the lines was

"something heavy like a first day period" I had to play it back to make sure I heard what I thought I heard

don't you love when you hide money somewhere, forget where you put it and then one day find it randomly.

su-san seafood

42-98 149th Pl, Flushing, NY 11355

life goes on don't let things get to you

there are so many assholes in this world

hey